You're No Good for Me

It's not normal for me to say this
It's even more unlikely that I'll admit this
But at 3 am when I'm needing you and you out with them
I can say it
You're no good for me

Don't get me wrong
I'm going to miss each inch
Each time you caress to a slow song
Each nibble and bite
Each time you say something that ain't right
See I know it's feel good during the late night
But then comes daylight to remind me
You're no good for me

See I want you bad like Jazmine Sullivan
I want you as a lover and a friend
But I guess I have to tell you again
You're no good for me

No good...
Simple wishes based on empty kisses
Night time dreams turned to another lonely scene
I go to bed with you and wake up in my own arms
At first it did no harm but now I can see through the charm
See through the game
See through my own personal shame
That at nights there are truthfully times I was sing, moan, and groan your name
But no matter what I know that

You are no good for me

It's Been A Year

It's been a year since the day I realized I would face my fears and cry more tears.

It's been a year since I came to realize what I between my thighs can't keep him around if he calling her wife.
Lying to me about changing my life and making things right.
It's been a year since I had to let him go.
Since I had to admit that I know he won't change.
Since I told him to go and it will be fine.
Since I saw him dance while going like I had destroyed his time.
It's been a year.

It's been a year since I asked you to go.
Since you destroyed my life and love it so.
It's been a year of rough nights.
Cold and nervous.
It's been a year of hurt and disservice.
It's been a year.
Tear after tear and day after day but still I fight to keep my life a certain way.
It has been a year.

Since I almost lost my angel without wings?
When I thought I would never again hear her sing.
Truly I seemed composed but only God really knows.
Wanted to fight the priest days before Christmas because he thought you wouldn't be with us.
I knew it wasn't time but everyone else i had to remind.

It's been a year and I smile like the devastation never came.
That when I hear your name those tear stains don't remain.
It's been a year of turmoil but I fight to not let a devil like you steal my joy.
Although you may hate me, my life you can't destroy.
It's been a year, and we've all come to terms that out of 91 years the time we spent with you is our blessing and you prepared us to each face our fears.

Lord give me strength for the next year.

How long...

I have to wonder how long this will last
How long before all the whispers pass
I have to put others in consideration
How long before I am selfish once again
I have to care what they think
I have to hear what they say
How long before I turn away
How long before I can't make it to the next day
I cry myself to sleep
And when awake never let out a peep
How long before I explode
And no longer hold back
Letting my story unfold

How long is all I can wonder
How long is all I can ask
How long will my pain last
How long will thins single tear roll down my face
How long will I hide and be lost without a trace...
~WLJ