Lies

Deception
A trick of the senses
The things I've been told
But only one thing
The truth only one shall hold

For some reason it seems to allude me

Is any of this real
Or am I so drugged up
On love and emotion pills
That I won't let myself see what's there
Or is the truth that I don't really care
I think I rather live the lie

Does he really exist?
Are my prays ever heard?
When I speak in secret,
can he account for every word?
Will he take away the pain?
Or is my belief in him all in vain?

There are some lies I devour
Regardless how sour
Because at the end of the day
They give me power

On the other hand
I think I'll take a stand
And leave some lies alone
Like a stray dawg
I leave you to roam
Out of my zone
You may begin to only hear dial tone
As I realize I am too grown

Is this love that I'm feeling?
Or a trick so that he can have his pick?
Should I have left it be?
Or is he really the one for me?
Do I believe he's like me
And carries his <3>

Or in the past

When you said you cared?
That no matter what you would be there?
Or that you would never have feelings,
Its was pleasure
Something to get us through
The "dry weather",
Was that at all true?

Because you for a while you asked
If you were the last one
If I was still a "good girl"
If I let anyone else in my world
And now you ask about my boo
And you make me wonder
If to yourself you were
A lil' dishonest
And untrue

Another one lingers
Like the singer wait for their chance
Or the dancer
Waiting to prance
The foe under my nose
Play nice
But ready to stab me
With a dagger made of ice
Hopefully they think twice
Stop saying one thing
But showing another

Don't speak
Because the poison
Is making me weak
Thought any of you cared
Or even dared
To lie of being there
Isn't fair
Since I was true to you
But is that even true
Because I was and am
So willing to be rid
Of any of you

Who turn on me
Plot to destroy me
Like a con-artist

The lies of thee
Have cut me at the knee
And now I fall
But as I do
I think
Of the worst lie that I ever heard
Told by the one who had the truth
The last and final word
The worst lie of all
Was told by me
That you were real
To make him my king
You were a true blue
I couldn't live without you
That you would still be there
And that you never cared
Or I should never dare.
And that your lies, weren't sour
But sweet and I allowed myself
To devour them by the hour